.:mis colores:.

es raro
cuando no estas conmigo
me muero por llamarte, hablarte
contarte de mi
mis cosas
mis razones
cerca de tus labios
tu espalda
se que te encantaria

cuando estoy a tu lado
me aturdo
me lleno de ideas, palabras
balbuceos indescifrables
al pundo de sentirme extrano
ajeno
monocromatico.

.:loco corazon:.

...estas a 8 cuadras
de mis mejores ganas de tocarte...

.:donde estoy:.

a vece la melancolia me mata
solo pienso en lo que fue,
en lo que sentia aquellos dias
el atarceder, en mi rostro, caliente
el viento, hacia que mis brazos se pusieran chinitos
"se siente como domingo.." pensaba
hoy no siento eso, no tengo porque
y eso me da miedo
ayer las cosas que hacia las hacia por gusto, porque era yo
hoy las hago por vivir
por comer
ya se que el ayer nunca vendra
ya se que deberia hacer lo que me gusta
pero hay tantos factores que me lo impiden
ahora ya no estoy solo
gente depende de mi

ayer sonhaba contigo
en como meterme a tu casa
sin que nadie se diera cuenta
despues de una fiesta al aire libre
de esas donde la gente vomitaba entre los arbustos
tocarte
con aliento alcoholico y mis manos temblorosas

ayer me borregueaba con el perfume de la lata a media noche
con la adrenalina al tope
mientras el frio me penetraba
pero me gustaba estar ahi
solo
ahora, no hay latas, no hay frio, no hay nada
en las calles solo hay gente que conozco
ya no me puedo esconder
ya no puedo debrallar y ni siquiera tengo la fuerza para hacerlo
(eso me mata)
me gustaria volverlo a vivir
ese tiempo
donde era fuerte
joven
sin miedo
ahora
ahora todo es diferente
todo es lo contrario
vivo con temor
en un lugar donde dicha libertad no existe
todo mundo sabe lo que haces
y todo lo que haces esta mal

quiero volver a entregarme
quiero volver a enamorarte
asi
alocadamente
entre la tarde y la escarcha
si solo me dieras esas horas
si solo supieras lo que algun dia fui
a lo mejor hoy no te parezca tan patetico
tan viejo
tan otro

.:palin:.

her policies, if any, are ludicrous.
pit bull in lipstick???
PURE demagogy.
are US politics that poor?
i feel like i'm in Mexico..
i'm so ashamed.

God Bless America

.:$$:.

when the money is so thick
it makes you heart go numb,
it makes your mind get sick

.:hey doc:.

its just a prostate infection..
why don't you try jerking off a bit more frequent....

.:balance:.

.-there is nothing impossible

well i know what you mean, i used to think that way, but i have come to the conclusion that a lot of things are impossible to do.
you know, to keep the balance

.- i don't know, i still think that everything is possible

well, no one can unscramble scrambled-eggs

.- ...hmmm..., that's a tough one.....

.:hmm:.

well, if we go back enough
we all come from the same monkey...

.:growing up:.

when we are kids
we have lots of friends,
then when we grow up
every one goes on its own direction,
and at the end
if we are lucky we get stock with one woman
and maybe one friend.

.:cake:.

when you sleep,
where do your fingers go?

.:neon:.

el timepo vuela
hace 3 dias, me levantaba temprano
nervioso,
con ganas de levantarme pero con mucho miedo de salir
escuchaba "hot music form the 20's and 30's" mientras mopeaba el piso de condesa
servia cafe con una sonrisa
mientras que en mi espalda la angustia me taladraba hasta los huesos
estaba motivado por mi nueva aventura,
pero aterrado del proceso
hace 6 dias te recojia del hard rock cafe
tomamos mucho y nos reimos..
hace 10 dias C.R.E.A.M. (cash rules everything around me)

hoy... nada es igual

no hay nada eretno
no puedo parar

.:nostalgia:.

some times i get nostalgia attacks
like a brumey chilly sunday morning
like something bad or sad that happened
or someone that never came and im still waiting for
maybe like time has stopped and im all by myself
this days i feel like smoking

.:calderon:.

Jamas seras mi Presidente.

.:ben:.

I don't know if my wife left me because of my drinking
or I started drinking 'cause my wife left me.

.:cake:.

last night i said to her
i didn't want to live inside a lie
if she wants him more than she wants me
let this be.

she'll come back to me.....

.:she'll come back to me:.

and once again
this disgust
in my insides,
in my guts
a blend of desperation and love
of tragedy and hope
of me without you
its been 45 days
since you took your love away
nowhere to be found
not in my bed
not in that 1994 Joseph Phepls
plenty of sadness though
but maybe
maybe tonight ill get to see you
at least in my dreams
if there's some of that left for me
or, maybe not

.:appo:.

Por nuestros presos,
por nuestros muertos
por nuestros desaparecidos,
ni un paso atras

.:cafe bari:.

- hey, so what can i get for you

hmm.. ,hmm... can i get... can i get a kiss

- haha, a kiss?, sorry we dont sell those.

ah..well, so then.. can i get a kiss??

- ahh.. nop

ok, so just a regular small and a kiss.



despues de pagar le tuve que robar un beso,
pense que mi iba a cachetear frente a todo el mundo..

me sonrio

.:missing you:.

but i know you are fine
cause since you are gone
i have sent the moon every night to check on you
when we meet, she tells me all you've done, how beautiful you look from up there,
that you dream with me,
that sometimes when you look up you smile.
im there with the moon
you are here with my heart
we are together in our soul

.:maxim no2:.

impossible is not a fact
is an opinion.

.:n-a-s-i-r:.

Now we're knockin on your mama's door
Like; "we came to fix the sink", my kind of war

.:para ti:.

si esta va para ti

Woman learns how to hate
to the extent that she unlearns
how-to charm.

.:wonders?:.

I'm no literate, scholar or anything like that,
however i think, i understand pretty well the definition of "wonder"
which is :
"One that arouses awe, astonishment, surprise, or admiration; a marvel:
An event inexplicable by the laws of nature; a miracle"

Neither the Christ in Rio, the Statue of Liberty nor the Kremlin (among others) makes me wonder, but thats just me. i don't deny their architectural magnificence , very impressive indeed, but no wonders...
just my .2c

.:where are u:.

its amazing how depression feeds our fears,
twits our minds in very dangerous ways,
makes us weak to the point of loosing control.
they say one should keep active in order not to think.
but is so difficult.

Lord help my poor soul...

.:yorba my way:.

i had fifteen people telling me "don't move!!!"
i got moving on my mind

.:maxims no1:.

one should not go into church
if one wants to breath pure air

.:comun??:.

el sentido comun,
es el menos comun de todos los sentidos

.:be transparent:.

How poisonous,
how cunning,
how bad every protracted war makes one
when it cannot be waged with open force

.:amarte no duele:.

en el amor, me encontre a mi mismo,
la mayoria ama para perderse.

.:women:.

ah,
Women!
they make
the highs
higher and
the lows
more frequent

.:so shut the fuck up:.

Complaining is never of any use: it comes from weakness.

.:where u at:.

With so much personality,
what do you want from me?
I could be by myself and enjoy the company

.:delixires:.

si les gustan los vinos y quieren aprender un poco mas
les pido visiten este nuevo blog delixires
para el cual estoy colaborando,
antes tenia el vino del mes aqui en mi blog pero ahora trato de escribir regularmente en delixires
asi que ya sabes delixires
para aprender de vino delixires
si necesitas comprar un vino para impresionar a la chamaca y no sabes cual delixires
si quieres ponerte una pedota delixires

.:never let go:.

iv'e been living a dream..
... but now that dream has gone
away from me

.:never stop:.

well, so its been a while
i haven't had the time to stop, think and regenerate
create my master plan...

i did become my dream,
but i settled into it, i stopped pushing
i've been really busy living my own quotidianity.
after all, history repeats itself,
cause we tend to forget.

however here i am,
dreaming, thinking, hoping,
pushing,
i have a dream!!
and once again
i want to become my dream.

.:error:.

mi falla hasta este momento en mi vida
es pensar que todo el mundo piensa como yo

no!! no emir!!
no todo mundo piensa como tu...

.:pero querias un restaurante:.

simpre quise abrir un negocio,
pues, para dejar de trabajar...
desde que lo abri
trabajo el doble....

.:el mundo se acaba:.

algo me pasa, me siento raro
como que no quiero saber de nadie
solo quiero quedarme en mi casa y dormir
asi como tu..
ja

- yo digo que algo pasa, no se , en el mundo....

je! si, ya sentimos que se va a acabar!!!

- No?!

ja

Mierda

- Si!!

.:so young:.

how is it that are we so young and caring ourselves towards distinction
20 years ago we didn't have Internet
30 years ago there was no computes nor home video
40 years ago TV was black and white
100 years ago there was no car
150 no light bulb
180 no steam engine
and before that it was so steady for centuries
now, now is to far for us to reach

.:the man i used to be:.

things that i said i would never do
I DID THEM

.:once again:.

Lord help my poor soul.

.:phoenix:.

it appears this is my first entry in over six mionths

.:about me:.

i not a smart man, but i do know love.

.:bizarre:.

women have the amazing ability to.......

.:paradox I:.

isn't it funny,
IV (intravenous injections) "Pain-killers" hurt so bad ??
hmm,..... my back isn't hurting anymore
but i cant move my arm....

.:going solo:.

things are working out pretty smoothly
is my first experience doing this, so obviously
i get frustrated on laws and extra procedures
i was not expecting or counting on,
but over all, i can say that its going on the right track
and pretty solid.
I'm amassed of all you can learn by going solo
not just professionally but mentally
emotionally and overall as a human
am so happy i took this decision
im gonna make it

.:primer anho:.

bueno pues también por acá cumplimos el primer anho de blog.
y digo por acá porque varios de mis compadres blogeros andan de cumpleanheros también
denles una leida les recomiendo

lado b

defecito

q-_-p mind streams

coltrane playing tristessa

gracias a todos los que me han leído y escrito su opinión
muchos de sus comentarios cambiaron mi vida
me hicieron ver mis problemas y soluciones
me ayudaron, me dieron la mano
y como no... sirvieron de guia
gracias
los tengo en mi corazón.


well i fulfilled my first year of this blog.
thanks to all of you that read me
and left their .02cents
many of them changed my life
made me see my problems and solutions,
helped me, gave a hand,
guide me.....
thanks
you are in my heart.

.:another year:.

wow, im surprised how much my life has changed in the last year
in all the aspects of my life..
love
work
living
thinking
im a different man,
and all as result of what i loss.
im so mature, so aware so humble and grateful of all whats happened
even if what happens, is a bad experience or gets me sad
ive learned that the is no bad experience.
every experience will have positive effect on me
no matter how harsh this is
im ready to take the risks
im happy of felling free

.:nuk:.

En la amorosa noche me aflijo,
le pido su secreto,
mi secreto,
la interrogo en mi sangre largamente.
Ella no me responde
y hace como mi madre,
que me cierra los ojos sin oirme
JS.

Gracias
Te QUIERO y te extranho MUCHO

.:cada noche:.

hay dias que quisiera ser como Doggie Houser
y escribir cada noche antes de dormir en mi blog
pero no siempre hay tiempo o ganas........